As I sit down in front of my LCD monitor screen (paling tak penting), I ask myself, 'Bile nak jadi baik? harapkan nama Muhsin saje ke?' (When am I getting better? Is it just in the name, Muhsin?).

The battle started. Ive lost plenty due to my own weaknesses and shortcomings and it gets frustrating.

I was reminded every now and then, that NOTHING.. NOTHING at all that happens to me or anything on earth and the skies without a purpose. tapi penattttt...hurr..

Oh Allah, ramadhan is almost here. This must be Your way of calling me back.

Thank you, Allah no matter what You have set forth for me! Hasbunallahu wa nikmal wakiil ni'mal maula wa ni'man nasiir! If it takes pain for me to be thankful and be reminded of You, it is probably worth it.

 La'allakum tashkurun..  La'allakum tashkurun..